my turn

[darkangel5778]

I ask for a tiny bit of help..................as of late, I have wanted ever so badly to drink from my husband, but you see for years I kinda ignored it because it has never been this strong, this desire for blood, I think I know why, I do have a wee bit of stress and that probably makes my resolve weaker as well as my physical self, but this desire, is beggining to get out of control, a few days ago I bit my husband during....................-coughs politely- bad enough to bruise his shoulder..............he did not seem to mind, even enjoyed it, and has told me that I could try it, but it scares me, I don't learn very well from reading, and I don't want to hurt him.
However this desire has reached a point that my anger is coming out more nad more frequently, I am by far more angry than I usually am, the smallest things are setting me off, and that is not me..............any ideas?:bat: I have taken up smoking again in a ditch effort to curb it, but one or two a day wound up going to a pack really fast, and it is still not enough............that may or may not makes sense to any of you................but hey there it is

[Saera]

I've been that way myself lately.- Anger completely out of control and nothing I try seems to help. Shadow says I exhibit signs of an unawakened but I'm not sure I'm ready to face something like that. Eh. Anyhow. I say if you want blood and your husband is okay with it... Read up, read carefully, and go for it.

[darkangel5778]

I am ok with the fact, hell I have pretty much been aware of it for a bit, just not sure if I am ready to take that next step ya know? So I have been trying to find alternative methods instead, and I am running out of ideas.

[Saera]

The idea of blood... makes me a little queasy. lol I suppose I may have to get over that but I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

[Camazotz]

Saera.. if the idea of blood makes you queasy, then it's most likely not for you. Before my awakening I couldn't even eat red meat unless it was completely cooked through, but after awakening and before actually sang feeding the blood in rare steak became completely appealing. IF it turns out that you are vamp, you'll know yourself if you're psi or sang... though remember that (again IF) you're awakening, there are a lot of different things you could be awakening to.

DarkAngel, if your hubby is ok with it and you know it's what you need then the best advice that I'd have would be for you both to read up together, to understand what it involves and means- so that you aren't feeling like all responsibility is falling on you. Generally it's good practise to have the donor make the cut themselves anyway, so he needs to be well versed himself in where is safe to cut, methods of disinfecting etc and to decide together whether you want to cut or use a finger prick, to start with a small amount and see how it goes. Remember as well, the blood is just a vessel- so it does NOT need to be a huge amount. Good luck!

[darkangel5778]

thank you cama, and will do that..

[Vicereine]

im going to add something here that I have said in another thread but that was quite a while ago.

I can understand your reservations darkangel. Is your husband vampiric? Mine isnt. And initially he was ok with me feeding from him, and it turned him on as well. BUT it was the idea of it that turned him on.

Something happened where he tried to surprise me one night by producing a knife and initiating feeding himself. However, i was unprepared and unable to contain the raw need, drive overpowered control and totally freaked him out.

He hasnt allowed me to feed since. Now its not all bad, we are still married so I cant of totally terrified him. There is a void there now. And its hard to not feed from him sanguinly as I once have. He does allow me to feed psi -wise.

I would recommend you have a sit down chat with hubby over this and prepare him for the reality of what you want to do. Explain that this isnt a case of wearing a sexy outfit to add variety, its a need not foreplay. Im not suggesting for one minute he doesnt know this already, but make sure. For your own piece of mind.

Hope it helps