what happens when you dont feed ?

[Preist]

Ok to start with i havent fed in a sanguine fashion for some time now and alot of its partly due to not wanting to i have my own reasons mainly for one of the agresive changes i have been experiancing for well over the past year and for a fact the thought of it has been turning my stomach as well

i dont know why this has been happaning but even with things like rare stake that i used to enjoy so much well my appatite for that has wained as well

for a good while now i have been trying to solely feed on PSI wich had been going well till a few months ago i found my self taking in less and less energy and feeding once a week at night clubs and bars when out for the night at the weekend sadly to my own dispair i am now relising that i need to feed more and make more an effort to do so

i have found this to be an intresting time for reflection on the effects i have had personaly to not feeding as its one thing we constantly use to define our selves from others or as alot put it mundanes.

when i stoped feeding using sang techniques i found it greatly difficult to begin with and i found my self dipping into depresions and well my agression levels increased making me murder to live with wich i am sure cama will verify
i also experianced alot of weird things along side the hunger pangs and a certain loss of apatite things like hearing and seeing things that were not there some of wich i can still find at the corner of my eye lurking but the nature of that is my own thing lol

dealing solely with PSI energy helped me alot but i found it a constant thing to keep up with and so not to let other around me fall to being tired i had to make sure that i was regulating who i was feeding from and when but for the most part after a while the hunger pangs faided and i got on with things now as i have said above i have cut down on this as well making sure i am not un-consiously feeding from friends and family i have found my health getting alot worse cuts and bruising which norrmally took days to heal are now taking weeks to get over with i am finding life that bit more painful esspecialy trying to get out of bed at the start of a day and now i am finding my self at the doctors office having got self checked out for more seriouse things

long and short of it is this is my own personal thing for taking me along one more step for my own peice of mind in what i am i know that every other person on this plannet can do what we can all do but they wont suffer the same effects and as i am now finding a life that had a full imunne system and now its fading lol actualy made me laugh when i got to the doctor she said to me what can i do for you we dont norrmally see you around here.

i do not recomend this and to a degree i am now regreting the whole thing wanting to know now if and when i do find a donor if i will be able to feed without my stomach turning tricks or getting to agressive and having to leave the whole thing entierly

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[ChadSang]

If I don't feed for 3 weeks I get so sick I have to stay in the bed and OMG the depression that sets in is the worse ever. Now I have 2 donors who are cutters so I feed twice a week.

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forogt to metion its been little over a year since i last fed sang

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[Craze]

If I don't feed for 3 weeks I get so sick I have to stay in the bed and OMG the depression that sets in is the worse ever. Now I have 2 donors who are cutters so I feed twice a week.


Nothing quite like feeding into a psychological disorder, huh?

Priest, my best advice to you would be get a donor as fast as you can. I'm sure you know there are subsitutes available, but they only go so far. We need what we need, and for sanguinarians, blood is as nutritionally needed(HEALTHY blood, I should say) as food or water..

[darklin]

I personally feel for myself that to feed sang from someone that there has to be a connection. I don’t think I could feed from someone who I didn’t feel 100% comfortable with regardless of the consequences to myself.
I have experienced the aggression you mentioned and I feel that in my case it was frustration of many things that I was dealing with.
There’s not a lot more I can say that you don’t already know yourself darling but I do hope that things settle down for you real soon *Hugs* I’m always here to let off steam too should you ever need that ;)

Also this is not meant to sound detrimental to yourself chad but I would think that feeding from two that have psychological problems isn’t a good idea at all…
Now I know you have years on me and have experienced a lot more but even so alarm bells rang when I read it.
I have no right to question your actions and I would never try to belittle your choices but with all of your wisdom I was shocked at what I saw.
There are issues here that I’m not aware of between you and your donors and I don’t presume to know the facts but how does one feed from one that has a psychological/mental illness and in all fairness have a clear continence that you have not just used someone’s illness to your own advantage?
I’m in no way disrespecting you I’m just curious as to how that would work out..?

Darklin

[kyuuketsuki_kurai]

Feeding from cutters is a point of contention among alot of people.
Many feel that the cuts are already being made, and there's no need to let it go to waste. Which, I suppose holds true, if the cuts were recently made and are still bleeding or fresh.
On the other hand, however, cutters often have other psychological issues that go along with their self-injury, and it's important that these issues not be made worse. Plus, since they do cut, many of them already have physical issues such as anemia due to blood loss and other things.

[darkangel5778]

I agree with kuri............a lot of times self cutters espcially get a kick out of the pain it is a thrill, or a psychological release............and for to feed on them not only allows them an excuse to do so. AS she pointed out, some say that it "wastes" blood, come on! we knick ourselves with razors shaving....(especially if we are doing it with no time lmao) and it goes down the drain.......we don't scream and go after it lmao. It is not liek blood will not replace itself in due course. but feeding from that type of person drages you down............while the blood rush is a momentary thrill.......the after effects are..............rather depressing................can even make you feel worse than you would normally...........it really defeats the purpose.............while you may feel physically sustained.psychological effects negate it............it cancels it out..........because as most have pointed out we do not do the wham bam thank you mam type feeding, we care for these individuals as our donors and therefore establish a link whether we want to or not lol:cuss: :lol2:

[darklin]

I personally haven’t had any real contact or had someone close enough to have had deep meaningful conversations about ‘Self harming` so I cant really comment from that point of view.
I guess this could go deeply into a debate and that wasn’t my intention I was just concerned about the whole prospect of ‘Enabling` someone with a psychological illness…
I can see the points of view and I agree with some of them but I must admit that I personally would not advocate taking this on lightly with a donor unless there’s a great understanding of what’s going on along with some sort of aftercare process…
Sounds clinical I admit but I don’t know any other way to express what im trying to say, and if i do think of another way ill be sure to post it ;)
There are many many different sinarios that go along with this and some work out and can be without harm but some im sure cause more pain than peace..

[Preist]

LoL think things were sparked here that should be in another post its self.

thanks for the response craze but to the light on it a donor is out of the question even if there was one handy wich offers have been made but i wont do it anymore not unless i get some frame of mind were the agression isnt there

for all the years i fought like an animal i wont treat a donor with that same temper and we both know that just isnt proper

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[ChadSang]

The things some of you said just have not been my experience. The 2 cutters I have now don't come over until they get a sudden urge to bleed. I've not had any donors suffer in any way because I fed off of them. I treat my donors very well, and I mean very well and am kind and gentle with them. I know some will want to debate this fact but this is all I will comment on the subject. Now don't get the wrong impression about no more comments. I'm not mad or anything like that. I just don't have anymore to say on the subject without repeating myself :cool: .

[Preist]

hmmmm ok will say it a lil louder this time ANOTHER THREAD PLEASE !!!

anyway thought about this and rememberd last time i couldnt feed because i was waiting for blood test results from being bitten by a mad bitch while throwing her out of a pub

one shot of anti quagulant namely vodka or JD and a willing donor to drip it in thinking its work a shot no smell and no contact with the donor one to actualy remember

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[ChadSang]

Thanks for the JD comment. I have done that before. When another elder and I had sort of a ceremony to be affiliated with each other we bled into a glass of red wine and make a toast.

[Preist]

closing thread think this has went way off topic sorry folks