Awakenings

[telltaleheart]

I did a search and didn't find anything specifically on the topic of awakening. I keep seeing the word used, and I have an idea of what you all mean of course, but I'd like more information, if possible.

For instance, if people could share what theirs was like- if that is not too personal.

I just don't recall having a time where I felt awakened to it... as opposed to a time I didn't, and it was never difficult for me in the first place so much as it was later on. So I would like to see more about the subject of Awakenings.

I also wonder how many of us exhibited evidence as children of what lay ahead. For instance, when I was three years old, my mother tells me I bit my sister in the back very hard out of nowhere. It put a hole right in her Yosemite Sam t-shirt. The pediatrician at the time explained to my mother that some children express their love this way, they bite in way that isn't out of frustration or anger, but because they're overwhelmed with love and it's their first instinct.

While amused to no end by that concept, I would love to know if anyone else here has similar experiences.

Sometimes I think that today a pediatrician would assume anger or some disorder and put a kid who did that right onto meds. I love that my doctor, who was my doctor until I was an adolescent, called it love. :D

[RKCoon]

Well ill bite - I hadnt known about myself all thru childhood and thru the puberty years, not untill i got online and was able to start some reading. originally, i had thought it was all a myth.. tho i could never shake a terribly uneasy feeling anytime i read or watched anything to do with vampires or so on. however, i was aware, tho very vauguely, of how my body was changing, and as much as i wanted to pass it off to puberty, i knew damned well it was more htan that. i found a number of message boards, vamps and so on, and i started to explore and see why it was people claimed to be so. a number of key articles i read made sence -- too much sence. i first realised when i was 20 -- rather shockingly i might add. id been living on my own for the first time, for a while, and i was VERY alone. my family, naturally, i couldnt tell, and i didnt have freinds at all at the time. the mental aspects took some time to sink in, but they did, and the first thing i learned was how to psi feed. it took effort to learn and control, but eventually i managed it -- only to find that psi feeding wasnt nearly as satisfying as i thougt itd be. up to this time, mind yo, id not even been WITH a woman, to say nothing of feeding for that matter.

It wasnt till later that year, i was working with a younger friend (that i had told this about) for her parents, and we were working on these steel plates to put onto thier store to shut it down for the season. well, shed managed to slice her finger, and me, instinctively, grabbed her ginger, to squyeeese out any etal filings or such in her finger, and to see how bad it was. I had grabbed her hand , squeesed it, and her blood went onto my fingers... and time seemed to stand still for a while. my mind sorta went blank, untill i realised shed jerked her hand from me and ran off to the bathroom to tend to it. i stood there, staring at it, and hearing someone coming i wiped it off onto my pants, then after she came out, i washed them.... but, for the next three days... the blood stayed there. it wouldnt wash off. i mean sure it was gone.. but i FELT it. i talked to her after, asked her why she pulled away, she said shed seen my eyes, and had panicked - shed never seen a look in anyones eyes like that, ever, and it had scared the hell outa her.

well, thatfreindship ended a long while after that, but the experience itself, that clinched it for me... up till i had actually fed. it was with my first gf, about 4 months later, just after my 21st birthday. that... was something else. the feeling of feedng form her, how my body, and my spirit reacted to it... i couldnt then nor now deny how it felt, for some i supposed it could of almost been called a religious experience. me.. it just proed what i was starting to learn, and made it totally undenyable to me.

Funny how ive come since then in the last 5 years. lol.

[Master_Thaddeus]

A lot of people are awoken in their teens. Its cause they are more willing to accept. But sometimes the person just rejects it and grows up forgetting they are or were ever awoken. Its different for everyone. Cant say it goes one way or another cause there is no guide lines. It depends on if your master has a plan for you this life or not.

[telltaleheart]

I have no master, never have, never will. There is no plan for me but my own.

I'm just curious as to others' awakenings. I again have a different situation, because of the multiples situation, but I do recall that feeling, like RK described. I already knew I was a vamp at that time, and it was before the alter shut it down to the extent that they could- but I remember a girl at work who cut her finger. The blood made everyone squicky, but I was right there, gauze in hand, first aid kit, just trying not to look as enthralled as I was feeling. lol

Ah, the RUSH. :le sigh: I went home that night and fed off my boyfriend, that I remember. That was at least fifteen years ago.

That is the challenge when someone's bleeding a little near by, isn't it? "Don't look so excited!" ;)

[gypsy mouse]

*smiles* sometimes its hard to muster that look of concern..

[menace]

ive never had that realization that i was kin i just allways knew what i am.
even as a child

[darklin]

Ive always known i was different from others that i grew up around even from a very early age but the thing was i didnt know why or how.I just accepted the way i was and dealt with it.I had quite a lets say rough and troublesome upbringing so didnt really have the time nor the place to sit and try to work out why i felt the way i did or why i knew the things i did.Looking back now though i can so clearly see that being the way iam and havin lets say the gifts i do that i saved my own ass more times that i care to imagine.
I only fully was able to accept myself for who iam after my son was born around 6yrs ago.I started to look for answers then and asked a whole lot of questions and heres where they all led me...Nox my home the place i can be myself and not be scared of judgment or ridicul from anyone.
My whole awakeining is far to complexe and would take up far too much space but if u want to ask me anything inparticular then please feel free hunnie my PM box is always open;)
Darklin
xxx