How others people see you?

[darklin]

The other night i was having a chat with a friend of mine and she made me realise something that i hadent ever really thought about before.
I was telling her about something that had happened to me over the weekend.I was on my way to a friends house and had to catch the bus.When i walked onto the bus i realise there was someone of other kin on there and i would say without hessitation she was were.As i walked past her she immidiatly started to as i perseived it "Freak out" I couldnt pin point most of what she was mentaly throwin at me but i got the jist,she seemed scared and very confused.I thought she was going to run off the bus a few times but she kept settling and then firering up again.I tried my best to calm her but i dont think it worked.
Ive never had an experience quite like it before and for such a long time(15mins) so i really didnt know what to do.Insticnt told me to close up and sheild myself but i found a deep saddness in her and i wanted to help her in some way but she obviersely wanted nothing to do with me so i respected that and left her be.
What bothers me the most is that i wondered if i had this effect on others around me?And if i have then why havent i ever sence it?
Im normaly in control of how i let others perseive me but she was a live wire and has really got me thinking about how others view not just myself but others.
Any feedback would be much appreaciated :)
Love and resect
Darklin

[Camazotz]

I find that from time to time other kin will notice me, but generally they'll just acknowledge it with a nod of the head or something like that and keep going. Sometimes there'll be an attempt to pull, I guess an astral challenge is a better way of describing it, but I can't be bothered with it- I'd much rather they either kept going or came over and spoke, than try to play games to sound me out.

What I do notice more than anything though is that children will see something different in me. A few weeks ago for example I was standing outside an agency waiting for Preist. A young boy (5 yrs or less) was walking down the street towards me with his grandad. From quite a distance away I could feel him starting to stare and he kept his gaze fixed on me the whole way. As his grandad and he walked past, he swung around so he was still holding his grandad's hand but walking backwards now, still looking right at me. His grandad was practically pulling him along to keep him going as the boy wasn't looking where he was going- just at me. Eventually they were crossing the street and his grandad gave out to him and tried to get him to turn around properly to be safe doing it. At this the wee lad said something to his grandad and pointed right to me, trying to show him whatever it was that he'd been looking it. I have no idea what was said in return, but after crossing the street he kept turning to look back as much as he could, till he was totally out of sight.

Thats just an example of it, but kids will very often notice something- I tend to presume its something in the aura.

Cama

[Twilight_Pisces]

Thats so strange Cama. I get the same reaction from children. At work, or really, anywhere. They all stare at me. At first I didn't really think about it. But it kept happening and I kept wondering why. This was all before my awakening, and now after, plus after sharing your experience. I understand why they do that.

Almost every child I come across, its like a magnetic drawing. They instantly like me and want to hang around me.

Whats even more odd, you'd never think that from all the bad profile the movies and stories of vampires being evil, that an innocent being would be drawn to you. I suppose that could be because they haven't got all the prejudices ingrained into them yet. That a vampire isn't really the "evil" being that everyone makes them out to be. Ugh, its hard to say what I'm thinking right now...

[darklin]

I have always had a very special bond with any child i have come across including my very own wee angel;)
If u know me persoanly then u will know how much my life revolves around me son and id never change a thing about that bond between us.Children have a very unquie way of looking at life and with such innocence comes beleave it or not "Open mindedness".I have had this happen to me many time and i love toying with them cos im a little kookie and more than calm kids down when its time for bed im more likely to start playing up and getting them all worked up lol I love being around kids i like the way they see everything in such a simple way.I didnt have very much of a childhood so maybe im just makin up for lost time lol
I would agree with u though that children will and can sence things that most cant and ive never ever scared a child when they have been in my presence.
One day they will grow up and become adults and all that fun will end so i say make the most of it enjoy the time u spend around children cos there not children forever;)
Darklin
xxx

[Camazotz]

Thats very true sweetheart, I only pray that I will be half the mum that you are if my time ever comes.

But anyway, I've totally wandered off topic there, so apologies lol

[darklin]

I sometimes have the ability to look at people through a childs eyes....It dosent happen very often but its amazing when it does and i saw u through a childs eyes when we first met hun and it didnt surprise me when u said that the wee boy couldnt take his eyes off u.
Im not quite sure what it is but i can understand why he did stare at u.If a child with such innocence can look into ur soul almost and still not be able to take there eyes of u darlin then thats says so much about the mother u will one day be *Snuggles*
Darklin
xxx

[Camazotz]

*blushes* aww, that's so kind sweetheart... heh you'll bring a tear to my eye *hugs*

[Pastor Dirk]

I would say that if you are a strong vamp you will have this effect on people you come accross....I know in my normal feeding grounds, I encounter vamps there and find that I do have the same effect to them as you describ but than I do meet some who are as confidant and strong will'd as me, that we just respect each other. I personally will go and greet them if the opertuniy presents it self...

[darklin]

U see thats just the thing i dont see myself as being a strong vamp as u say i feel more like the one that just floats about and takes everything in invisibly.Iam the same i will greet with a respect that is either tolarated or dissmissed what ever the other person is comfortable with really.Maybe i should be more aware of my own energy levels and how they effect others??I dont know....but i will work it out in my own time and with the guidence and surport of the lovely peeps here at nox i cant see me going wrong.
Darklin
xxx

[RKCoon]

Me, personally i try usually to avoid people, even when im not tho, i find people dont notice me all that much. which normally is a good thing ;)

[Pastor Dirk]

Me, personally i try usually to avoid people, even when im not tho, i find people dont notice me all that much. which normally is a good thing ;)


well I am so damn cute they just want to be around me.....lol....I j/k

[darklin]

Back on topic *tut* lol

Ok this week i had a very interesting experience.I used to go to my local spiritulist church nearly every week depending on the it me i had alone with having weeman.Anyhow i was asked to go back this week with some good friends so i reluctently agreed to go.Ive not been back since my awakeing so i didnt know what i was in for and was a bit optamistic to say the least.
I was worried about what people would see within me...why? Ive no idea i just felt asthough i was putting myself on show and im not one for that atall well not unless its of my own acord;)
I used to go there to help with the healing side of things but then back in those days i had no idea how much goes into it.I had a few of the congrigation memebrs that used to just want to come and chat with me after a service and they always siad they felt refreshed and enlightened.I would visulise the healing and prosess it through my hands and work with those.It came from my own instincts i was never taught to do what i was doing it just came natural to me and they saw that so they let me get on with it as i wasent causing anyone any harm.It wasent until the end of last year that i was put through my 1st degree in reiki so now im more aware of just how powerful healing can be.And hopfully will be taken through my 2nd degree soon *nudges Preist*;)
Anyways ive gone off what i was saying lol
Ok so we got to the church and i was weirdly calm.Usualy i get overwhelmed by others emosions of anticipation of reseiving a message but this time i had it all back and felt totaly at ease.I blended in very well if i do say so myself.There was no anticipation from me of getting any kind of message as i knew this wouldnt happen because i have my own contact to my loved ones who have past.I was just taking it all in and watchin all the diffrent auras of the people there which was a first for me as id never really looked for them so i was otherwise occupied lol
I hadnt taken much notice of who was sitting about me really but i felt a familiar presence and then i noticed and recognised the woman sat infront of me.It was my aunt who ive not seen for well over 8yrs.I had heard about her 15yr old daughter passing away about 2yrs ago and i had tried to contact her but to no aval.And there she was right infront of me.Coicindence??Theres no such thing lol
Our eyes met and she was so pleased to see me as i was to see her.We couldnt really talk until the end of the service so my mind wandered off and i was again fasinated by peoples auras.If ur wondering why i wasent payin attention to the guy who was talkin on stage it was because i heard him make this comment *Trust ur elders and never take advice concerning spirit from the younger ones as u will be given wrong inforamtion*I wasent there for a message anyways and the adivce he was pouring out i could have told u when i was 10yrs old.
When the sevice had finsihed i walked to the back of thr room and my aunt came over and give me the biggest hug!She noticed my pendent and held it and just smiled at me with a smile ive never seen b4 coming from her.There was something there for sure she wasent quite like the aunt i remember and something had changed somewhat.I was a wee bit confused to begin with but then in an instant as if she had whispered it in my ear she let me know it was safe to be around her and that she was the same as me.I cant explane the way i felt havin someone i have known all my life but not really been close to for a long time stand infront of me and see me for what i really am as i saw what she was.We had alot more in comon this time around.We couldnt really talk as i had my whacky friends buzzin about me moaning about the beer getting cold at the local lol
She did tell me that she had been through her 1st and 2nd degree in reiki and that she is opening a holistics threapy clinic in my area and would love to have me help out.One other coment she made was that i had some lovely souls surrounding me:)
That was basiclly all we got chance to say to eachother but so much more was said without words.We will hopfully be getting together soon so i will keep ya posted ;)
Thank you so much for reading my rantings but i just had to share this experience with u guys as it ment the world to me.
Darklin
xxx

[Camazotz]

I hope she'll give you a ring soon hun and you two can get back into each others' company again properly :) It's always great to have good family around *hugs*

[darklin]

Me too sweetheart although i dont think it will be right away.She lost her daughter 2yrs ago like i said and shes always said she wanted me as her daughter too so maybe shes havin a few things to deal with in her mind after seeing me so ill give her time and not ponder on it too much but i know she will contact me i just have to be patient for once ;)
*hugs*

[alucard0424]

in my life i have always been the outcast so i never realy noticed the fact that i could kreep someone out but now that i look back on it i can see it i dont know if this helps but i just embraced it and let it be i am what i am and no one is going to chage it even if you change everything your true self will come out in some way

[Vicereine]

I have found that when i actively speak to people they open up to me and seem to want my advice or to be near me. Sometimes this is a good thing, if im in a strong place and my sheilds are well up. When im tired or weak, i feel each emotional wave hit me like a tidal wave.

Something strange happened at school the other day in relation to me actually writing a thankyou poem to the school for their help with my kids and then I passed on my 'for my children' as a parents perspective on living with autism and everyone started crying. Short story, i got bombarded with people wanting me to be a counsellor and train and help others. Normally council estate types articulating feeling and thought on subjects.

Thinking over it after I recovered from the shock I realised that thishas happened repeatedly throughout my life whenever I have opened myself to people in general. Obviously I do not tell them my nature or my Kin types. But they are drawn to my energy.

I still dont know how I feel about this, although I know im being guided to helping others in some capacity. Im happier in the shadows but darn this need to help.

When Im in darker sensibility people actively avoid me , avoiding my aura . Walking around it. It seems that my aura expands when Im feeling dark/deadly/or i need to feed.

[Lost]

Hmmm…well for me as much as I despise it I draw attention sometimes good sometimes not so good, I mind my own business and generally try to distance myself from others and for most part it works, however it’s not always successful. I frequently find myself stared at and generally avoided which is fine except for the staring part, though there are some that will approach me regardlessly and it’s the same thing every time.

I find that whenever I am approached it will generally pan out that they will tell me something of profound meaning to them, life changing or things they wouldn’t normally talk about in whatever form that may be through the course of the conversation, well I say conversation but really I just listen. While this perplexes me somewhat it doesn’t bother me as much as another issue which leads me to the question: Does anyone else feel that negative energy is drawn towards them? For example whenever I go to a bar or club I find that if there is a fight I wind up smack bang in the middle of it despite doing my upmost to avoid it.