Just a little question...

[FaeInTheShadows]

First of all i'd like to say I love feeding RK (who i'm a donor/gf/whatever to currently). But sometimes when he puts the blade to my back I get scared. It's not like I don't trust him, or at least i'd like to think I trust him throughly. This isn't anything new to me...I just get a bit worried. He picks up on this everytime and I don't want him to feel like he's doing anything wrong, because he's not. I was just wondering if anyone else has had this happen to them or their donor. What I really want to know is if there is something I can do to calm myself down or get rid of this feeling when he goes to feed.

I'm thinking it may have something to do with him vamping out on me one to many times...which I have told him has scared me before but I realise it isn't something he can turn on or off. A little bit of guidance would be nice. :(

[Camazotz]

Well, with a donor or when I'm donating myself, I ALWAYS insist that the donor makes the cut themselves. That way there's not as much worry for themselves about where it is, how deep it is etc etc.

Hope that helps somewhat,

Cama

[Eclecta]

I would be far more worried about you if you didn't experience a little fear about it. After all you are letting someone cut you. That requires alot of trust, and that in itself can be pretty scary.

Lots of ppl want their donors to cut for them.. but I prefer to do it myself. I guess it is all a matter of opinion, but it just works best for me that I do it, that way I know it won't be to much or not big enough..

As for vamping out on ya... Granted he can't control when it comes and goes, but he can control how he reacts to it. You may be empathic towards him and are picking up on more of his vamping out that any one else would which is potentially worse for you in this case.

Good luck... I'm sure everything will work out for you. We are here for you regardless.